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So lots of things have happened since I last posted. OK, confession time, I lost my password and finally found it today. Can't say that it's a good excuse, but it's mine for now. Lots have happened to us lately. It wasn't bad enough that Mike broke his ankle nearly a year ago, had to spend 8 weeks in a cast. It wasn't bad enough that on the 4th of July I tore my tendon in my knee and ended up undergoing surgery for that and about 6 weeks out of work. Actually, all the horrible events in our lives have made us a bit physically weaker, but more spiritually stronger. I am truly greatful for the lessons that the Lord is teaching us about depencency. He taught me about true dependency on Him for my life's circumstances. Next lesson: being alone in His presence.

I thought I really knew what it was like to be alone. I hate being alone. I usually waste alone time with "fillers" or sleep. Just over a month ago, I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer. Not very easy for me to swallow or admit. I felt totally out of control. OK, He's in control not me. At least, that's what I would keep saying. I want to be mad. I want to have a pity party. I want to be stoic. I want to let Him take care of it. I want to hide in bed.

I didn't have much choice about what I could do. So I made appointments. I had tests. I had surgery. I rearranged my schedule. I finally gave it to Him. It sucked. But at least I had peace. I can't explain how, but I had peace. I had lots of people praying for me also. I found out that it is hard for me to ask for prayer. I don't like to be needy. I don't like to be weak. I had no choice, well, actualy I did.

The next step now is a bit harder I admit. After surgery, I had to undergo ablation by radioactive iodine. 3 days of complete home isolation, and a total of 2 weeks isolation no closer that 6 feet to human contact. Small price to pay for inhilation of any remaining cancer cells. But it still sucks. I love to hug. It's what I do. Well, not for 9 more days. I'll survive.

Lessons: coming soon to a blog near you